For my baby ~ Ferris Mokhtar van de Ven

For my baby ~ Ferris Mokhtar van de Ven;
..for all my love, my heart and soul..all belong to you! This is how ummie love you - higher than a mountain, wider than an ocean ~

Thursday, January 28, 2010

MY NOVEL - intro Part 1

Sayang
Lama sudah kunanti kehadiranmu
Sudah lama kucari di setiap pelusuk alam ini
Ke gunung-gunung
Ke lembah-lembah
Ke rimba-rimba
Kau tidak dapat aku jumpa
Telah aku selam lautan dalam
Telah kusentuhi dasar bumi
Kau masih tidak kutemui

Di manakah kau sayang?
Dekatkah kau padaku?
Jauhkah kau dariku?
Hampirkah kau denganku?
Jarakkah kau dari sisiku?
Atau..
Dikaukah yang menyorok di belakang tirai hatiku?
Dikaukah yang sembunyi di dalam kotak jiwaku?
Terkunci mati dalam kamar jasadku?
Puas sudahku kupujuk-pujuk dirimu
Puas sudah kurayu-rayu cintamu
Puas sudah kupuja-puja semangatmu
Masih kau tidak tiba lagi!

Tak penatkah kau duduk berselindung di situ?
Tak mahukah kau keluar dari tempat persembunyianmu itu?
Tidakkah kau mahu melihat indahnya mentari
menyinsingkan sinarnya di subuh hari?
Tidakkah kau mahu menikmati kedinginan malam
nan diterangi bulan penuh?
Tidakkah kau mahu mengira jutaan bintang nun di langit tinggi?
Infiniti!

Tak sudikah kau?

Sayangku..
Sudah lama kuhitung hari demi hari
Jari ini sudah penat mengira.
Sudah lama aku bilang tarikh demi tarikh itu
Bulan demi bulan
Tahun demi tahun
Kau mash tak kunjung tiba
Tak kasihkah lagi kau pada aku?
Tak sayangkah lagi kau pada jiwaku?
Tak simpatikah lagi kau pada cintaku?
Tak sudikah kau bermain-main lagi di laman hatiku nan kegersangan ini
Yang amat merinduimu pada setiap detik dan saat ini?
Pada setiap denyutan jantung ini
Pada setiap aliran darah yang mengalir ini..
Tak mahukah kau berjinak-jinak lagi di perkarangan jiwaku
Yang amat berahikan kehadiranmu
Yang mabuk hangat asmaramu..

Telah aku hias tempatmu bersemayam di singgahsana santapan jiwaku nan luhur
Kupacakkan panji-panji kebesaran alam sambut ketibaanmu
Untuk kau bertandang
Kau bertamu sesuka hati
Sepuasnya!

Telah aku pesan para bidadari-bidadari
Liang-liuk pinggul mengatur langkah
Lemah-gemalai tarian persona sang puteri menjeling manja
Tersenyum simpul melirik mata memanah rasa
Jadi hiburan kala sepimu..

Telah aku janji iringan gendang paluan asmara sang-sang teruna
Gema seluruh alam berkumandang seluruh jiwa
Bangkit raikan temasya agung para gahara
Jadi penglipur kala sunyimu..

Telah aku tempah hembusan nafas angin-angin dingin
Dari pelusuk gunung-gunung
Berseling sayup-sayup gemersikkan tiupan kasi bulu perindu sang pecinta
Mendayu-dayu merdunya
Berdersik ke sanubari nyamannya jadi penenang jiwamu
Berselimutkan kain sutra halus nan terpilih
Untukmu beradu lena hingga ke pagi..

Tidak cukupkah lagi?
Tidak cukupkah?
Namun kau masih tak tiba..

Manakah ilhamku?

Siapakah yang lagi layak menjiwai rindu itu tat kala ia singgah menyapa bersama tiupan bayu subuh nan sepoi-sepoi bahasa lembutnya, dinginnya hingga menusuk ke tulang sum-sum nyamannya, halus belaiannya membaluti tubuhku nan kaku kesayuan lantas ianya datang bertandang menatang berdulang-dulang hantaran cinta akan hangatan jiwa kudusnya, menggalas bertempayan-tempayan mata air dari pelusuk rimba dara di bahu kasih untuk penghilang dahaga rindu dendamnya yang telah menjadi tuak memabukkan aku akan asmaranya pada sang kekasih nan tulus pembuktian cinta, nan telus pemberian jiwanya.. pecinta setia..
Atau..
Hanya aku yang dilamun cinta?
...tat kala

Hadir dirinya..



September 13, 2007
23:40
Belgium

My POST on Facebook

I'm writing a book (in bahasa)...an awfully depressing one!
I've been writing this book since in the few last months i was in Belgium..and i am still writing it..means it's been 27 months now in total!
I have paused it for 8 months, right after i lost Ferris...cant write at all! Out of inspirations..more of all, every lines of it reminds me of my naughty & extra-need-attention son, i got into badly depression..totally out of my control..all those tears..all those fears..all those darkness..
and now..am getting back on my track..and since last 2 months, after Dato' Sharizat said she will help me with my case to get Ferris back, so i started writing it back...almost 80% done, hope i will finish it by end of this Feb.
I hope u guys are supporting me..this is wht i've been dreaming of, to express my feelings something in writings instead of paintings. I'm might not a good writer, but at least i do write.. Anyway...wanna read some of my writings, have a look at ferriswithlove.blogspot.com
hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu for each time i read this page..all those inspirational msgs whc u guys have posted here... some of u i dont knw who and some, they are my friends... honestly, that posts keep me going on! :)
If any victory i'll get soon, this is not from me, this is all from all of u...who keep on reminding me everyday...not to give up, not to be scared...fight for my right! and GET back my son!
how can i thank u? still.. thx for all your supports...it means a lot to me..
love, elis

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Ferris On Camera! Oct 2008


Jan 19, 2010 - Sinar Harian

Elis Syuhaila diarah fail hujahan 8 Februari

SHAH ALAM - Bekas pensyarah, Elis Syuhaila Mokhtar yang memohon supaya suaminya, warga Belanda dikenakan prosiding menghina mahkamah kerana gagal mematuhi perintah untuk menyerahkan anak mereka diarahkan untuk memfailkan hujahan bertulis.

Sehubungan itu, Hakim Mahkamah Tinggi Syariah di sini, Abu Zaky Mohammad menetapkan 8 Februari ini sebagai tarikh sebutan semula untuk memberi masa kepada Elis Syuhaila yang diwakili peguam syarie Salwa Fadzil berbuat demikian.

Elis Syuhaila, 34, hadir di mahkamah semalam bersama Pengerusi Biro Aduan Komuniti Pemuda UMNO, Datuk Muhd Khairun Aseh yang memberi jaminan membantu Elis Syuhaila mendapatkan anak itu yang dilarikan Frank Theodorus Van De Ven @ Firdaus ke Belgium.

Muhd Khairun berkata, usaha mengembalikan Ferris Mokhtar Van De Ven akan diteruskan meskipun Frank, 40, yang dihubungi sebanyak dua kali bukan sahaja tidak bekerjasama, tetapi turut memaklumkan tidak mengiktiraf undang-undang syariah serta mempersendakan keputusan mahkamah syariah.

“Agak sedih kerana dia datang dari negara yang memperjuangkan hak asasi tetapi menidakkan hak asasi Ferris kepada ibunya. Jika dia masih tidak mengiktiraf keputusan mahkamah berhubung prosiding komital, besar kemungkinan kita akan melantik peguam di Belgium.

“Mereka tidak mengetahui undang-undang syariah tetapi sekurang-kurangnya mereka tahu tentangnya. Fakta yang mereka tidak boleh nafikan Ferris ialah hasil daripada Undang-undang Syariah Selangor,” katanya.

Elis Syuhaila memfailkan permohonan komital selepas mendakwa Frank gagal memulangkan Ferris, 6, pada 25 Mac 2009 seperti perintah yang dikeluarkan awal Februari lalu supaya hak jagaan dikongsi bersama selang seminggu sehingga kes diputuskan.

Pemeriksaan mendapati Frank melarikan Ferris menerusi sempadan Rantau Panjang, Kelantan pada 5 Mac 2009.

Sehubungan itu, Elis Syuhaila memfailkan permohonan itu untuk menghantar Frank ke penjara kerana perbuatannya didakwa menghina mahkamah mengikut Enakmen Tatacara Mal Mahkmah Syariah Selangor 2003.

Jan 19, 2010 - Malay Mail

Malaysian-Belgian custody battle continues
Submitted by Najiah on Monday, January 18th, 2010

* custody battle
* Elis Syuhaila Mokhtar
* Frank Theodorus Van de Ven @ Firdaus
* Local

Darshini Kandasamy
Monday, January 18th, 2010 15:56:00

SHAH ALAM: In the ongoing custody battle over six-year-old Ferris Mokhtar, the Syariah High Court here today has set Feb 8 as the next mention date in the committal proceeding case filed against Dutchman Frank Theodorus Van de Ven @ Firdaus for his failure to return his son to his Malaysian mother.

Syarie Judge Abu Zaky Mohammad set next month's date to allow Ferris's mother, Elis Syuhaila Mokhtar, 34, to file her written submission for her application to commit her estranged husband over his failure to abide by the local court ruling to return her son, who is now alleged to be living in Belgium.

Elis was present in court today, together with her Syarie counsel Salwa Fadzil but Van de Ven was again absent.

After filing for divorce in January 2008, Van de Ven, 40, and Elis took turns looking after their young son on a weekly basis. The boy turned six last Dec 7.

However, on March 5, Van de Ven failed to return Ferris and was alleged to have smuggled his son to Belgium via Thailand, leading the Shah Alam High Court to issue an arrest warrant against the computer programmer on March 25.

Despite a Nov 10 court ruling bestowing Elis, a housewife and former lecturer, full custody of Ferris, Van de Ven has yet to return the boy.

It was further reported in a Malay daily that Van de Ven claimed he had been granted full custody for Ferris by a Belgian civil court on June 8, which he has applied for in early 2009, as Ferris had lived in Belgium throughout most of his life and Elis was allowed to supervised visit of their son in Belgium.

He further claimed it was Elis who had failed to return Ferris back to Belgium after visiting Malaysia in October 2007 for Aidilfitri celebrations, following problems with their marriage.

These were refuted by Elis, who claimed Van de Ven had chosen to return to Belgium alone in 2007, that Ferris was born in Putrajaya, and they had been living in Malaysia.

The case, fraught with allegations on both sides, has garnered much attention from both the local and abroad media, with even Women, Family and Community Development Minister Datuk Seri Shahrizat Abdul Jalil asking Attorney-General Tan Sri Abdul Gani Patail for his help in the efforts to have Ferris returned to his mother.

The couple met in Malaysia and were married in 2001.
Ferris was born in 2003 and has both a Malaysian and Belgian passport, which the court allowed Elis to keep.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Ferris' Photos...CHECK IT OUT!

http://www.photoblog.com/watermarkport/2010/01/17/

http://www.photoblog.com/watermarkport/2010/01/12/my-white-wishes-are-my-baby.html

:)

Ummie Ferris

NEWSPAPERS

23 Dec 2009
http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2009&dt=1223&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Mahkamah&pg=ma_09.htm

http://www.sinarharian.com.my/com/content/story6239985.asp

http://www.hmetro.com.my/Current_News/myMetro/Wednesday/Mahkamah/20091223075005/Article/index_html

15 Dec 2009
Majalah Wanita (Utusan) Keluaran Jan 2010

12 Dec 2009
http://www.bharian.com.my/Current_News/BH/Saturday/Nasional/20091212001305/Article/

2 Dec 2009
http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2009&dt=1202&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Keluarga&pg=ke_01.htm

29 Nov 2009
http://www.canadaeast.com/news/article/872567

http://www.hmetro.com.my/Current_News/myMetro/Sunday/Setempat/20091129084401/Article/index_html

http://thestaronline.com/news/story.asp?file=/2009/11/28/nation/20091128161327&sec=nation

http://www.sinarharian.com.my/com/content/story6112470.asp

28 Nov 2009
http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2009&dt=1128&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Terkini&pg=bt_15.htm

http://www.bernama.com.my/bernama/v5/bm/newsgeneral.php?id=458558

http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/articles/20091128153723/Article/index_html

http://www.nstp.com.my/Current_News/NST/articles/11hisi/Article/index_html

http://www.nstp.com.my/Current_News/NST/articles/11hersid/Article/index_html

22 Nov 2009
http://kosmo.com.my/kosmo/content.asp?y=2009&dt=1122&pub=Kosmo&sec=Rencana_Utama&pg=ru_06.htm

15 Nov 2009
http://www.joop.nl/wereld/detail/artikel/maleisische_moeder_zet_facebook_in_bij_ontvoering_zoon_door_nederlandse_vader/

14 Nov 2009
http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/articles/20091113181324/Article/

http://www.kosmo.com.my/kosmo/content.asp?y=2009&dt=1112&pub=Kosmo&sec=Negara&pg=ne_04.htm

http://nursamad.blogspot.com/2009/11/bringing-back-ferris.html

12 Nov 2009
http://mazidulakmal.blogspot.com/

http://syahrilkadir.wordpress.com/2009/11/12/bring-back-ferris-to-malaysia/#respond

http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2009&dt=1112&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Dalam_Negeri&pg=dn_14.htm

http://nst.com.my/articles/20091111184836/Article/index_html

11 Nov 2009
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/11/11/courts/5084106&sec=courts

http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/articles/20rjf/Article/index_html

http://www.hmetro.com.my/Wednesday/Setempat/20091111013445/Article/index_html

http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2009&dt=1111&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Mahkamah&pg=ma_01.htm

http://malaysia.news.yahoo.com/bnm/20091110/tts-court-custody-bm-with-pix-993ba14.html

http://www.bernama.com/bernama/v5/news_lite.php?id=454091

http://www.bharian.com.my/Current_News/BH/Tuesday/Mutakhir/20091110162827/Article/

10 sept 2009
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/9/10/nation/4683903&sec=nation

29 Aug 2009
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/8/29/courts/4616380&sec=courts

http://mstar.com.my/berita/cerita.asp?file=/2009/8/29/mstar_berita/20090828175427&sec=mstar_berita

http://www.gufx.info/showthread.php?t=52023

28 Aug 2009
http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2009&dt=0829&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Jenayah&pg=je_03.htm

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/8/28/nation/4602460&sec=nation

27 Oct 2009
http://www.sinarharian.com.my/com/content/story5303398.asp

12 Mar 2009
http://www.kosmo.com.my/kosmo/content.asp?y=2009&dt=0312&pub=Kosmo&sec=Negara&pg=ne_02.htm

http://archives.emedia.com.my/bin/main.exe?state=sp3u0l.1.1&f=archtoc&p_toc=archtoc&p_search=search&p_help=s_help&a_search=Search&p_s_ALL=elis+syuhaila+mokhtar&p_op_ALL=AND&p_plural=no&p_s_PU=&fdy=2009&tdy=2009&fdm=1&tdm=12&fdd=1&tdd=31&p_L=25&p_SortBy1=DA&p_Ascend1=NO

Friday, January 15, 2010

Terima Kasih semua..

Terima kasih saya ucapkan kepada semua yang memberi sokongan penuh kepada saya untuk terus berjuang mendapatkan Ferris semula ke pangkuan saya. Sokongan sebeginilah yang amat saya perlukan dengan memberikan kata-kata semangat kepada saya untuk terus berjuang menghadapi segala rintangan demi anak, dan yang paling saya t...erharu, dengan doa-doa dari semua...Makbulkanlah Ya Allah!
Perjalanan saya untuk mendapatkan Ferris masih jauh. Ntah berjaya ntah tidak, itu tidak pernah menjadi penghalang bagi saya untuk berputus harap. Juga dengan segala rintangan yang saya hadapi, itu sedikit pun tidak melemahkan semangat saya untuk mendapatkan Ferris..
Ini bukan lagi berkenaan dengan hak penjagaan, ini adalah Hak Asasi manusia..
terima kasih banyak2...tak terdaya saya nak berterima kasih, hanya Allah saja yang dapat membalas segala-galanya. Terima kasih.

p.s terima kasih juga pada anak-anak murid tersayang yang selalu doakan untuk teacher...love u guys! and miss u guys too..

Friday, January 1, 2010

..on 1st Jan 2010..

..it's really sad new year's start...i still dont knw where my baby is..how he is..wht is he doing.. does he happy? does he sad? all i know for sure he is missing me..wondering where his ummie is and keep on wishing that he could see me...and tell me wht life he has been through without me....like all kids do when the... parents just came back home from work! he wants to tell everything....
Baby, ummie is here at Atok's house...ummie has to wait for something so ummie can see u ASAP! ummie miss u every single day...ummie miss u baby..
no one in this world could ever replace u in my heart, and ummie just cant be happy, cant sleep..till ummie see u..hold u, hug u and kiss u...and ummie will tell the truth wht's going on here...
but, ummie is happy to have u, gave birth to u and taking care of u all the time, although we are far away apart, but it never stop ummie to take care of u and loving u like always, baby..
as ummie always love u and u never got a second in your life that ummie not get u in my mind..
u are always there..
and ummie never stopped sending u love everyday..
and ummie believes, that one fine day will come..
just hold on baby...

i really love u Ferris..


ummie