For my baby ~ Ferris Mokhtar van de Ven

For my baby ~ Ferris Mokhtar van de Ven;
..for all my love, my heart and soul..all belong to you! This is how ummie love you - higher than a mountain, wider than an ocean ~

Monday, February 28, 2011

FERRIS FUNNY PICS SERIES #7 - Ferris pity face..but FUNNY though!


FERRIS FUNNY PICS SERIES No.7

Please...take me out!!

Date taken: July 17, 2004
Ferris was 7 months old!

Place: Opa & Oma's house, Uikhoven, Belgium
Taken by: Ummie
Camera: Fujifilm S2pro

Ferris pity face..but FUNNY though!


Hmmmm....


Ahhhh....


Hmmmm......


..smile baby smile!


Urmmmmmhhh...



Ermmmmmmm.......


He He He He..
Owh poor baby Ferris....

Loving u too much, son!
Let's pray we could be together again...soon! Very soon!

Amin amin amin

Ummie sayang Ferris!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

FERRIS FUNNY PICS SERIES #6 - Ummie.. See! I didn't do anything wrong!!

FERRIS FUNNY PICS SERIES No.6

Ummie.. See! I didn't do anything wrong!
I'm just playing with sand!!!!

Date taken: July 12, 2005
Ferris was 1 year and 7 months!

Place: in the garden, Spechtstraat 18, Belgium
Taken by: Ummie
Camera: Fujifilm S2pro

Ferris is trying his best!!

- Part 1 -

Look ummie... I'm just looking!!!

Ferris! Don't play with the sand!!!
No, ummie! Ferris just holding the sand...


Ummie says, DON'T PLAY WITH THE SAND!!
I'm just looking, ummie!
Look! So many sand on the terrace...
(Huh! Too much work here.. poor ummie..
I'm just trying to help u out, ummie...)


HUH! WHAT ARE U DOING, FERRIS!!!
Don't worry, ummie... I just touched a little only!
(Well, I must do something...ummie seems very mild today!)


Have a look ummie... the sand is just so fine..
(Oh, ummie just keep taking my photos..it's a GREEN LIGHT!!)


WHAT ARE U DOING, FERRIS?
Nothing!!!!
I'm just putting some sand on the grass..


I think I need to help more...
..Ferris is a good boy, right!


FERRIS!! I TOLD YA!!!
Woops!!! The sand just FLYING!!!
SORRY, ummie!


HE HE HE!! It was AWESOME, wasn't it? Ummie!!!
Can I try it again????


Woops... again the sand just flew over my head!!! Cool ~


Oh NO! Sand all over my hair!!!
Can I pretend like in the shower??

NO FERRIS!!! STOP IT!!!
IT'S TOO MUCH NOW!!!



- Part 2 -

Ummie just cleaned u up, u better behave now!

Yes ummie... Ferris just play here!!
PROMISE?
Promise!! No more flying sand!!


See.. I behave now!!


He he he.. but the sand just too exciting!!


Okay, let me draw something for u, ummie..


I'm drawing a huge ball!!!
No no.. i am tractor!!! ..ermm.. digger??
Yey! This is too much FUN!!


Gulp!!! FINALLY!!

well..
this is Ferris!
That was how he always want to get what he wanted!

He will do anything to charm me..
or creating any stories..
or funny reasons..
just to divert my attention from being strict to him
and later I just loosen up!

Oh, I swear by the name of Holly God
Maha Pengasih Maha Penyayang Ya ALLAH..
I miss HIM!
I miss my Ferris!!!

For now, for the past, present and future..
Ferris, u know that ummie is always ready for all your acts or mumblings!!!
And, ummie never failed to take my time
and listen to you!

I am alive while feeling so much of dying..
I am lost and despair..
not even want to live..
total terminally depressed..

I feel this is not because I feel regret
that I didn't say things that I suppose to say to Ferris, or,
I regret for the words that unspoken to Ferris, or,
I didn't do what I suppose to do to Ferris, or,
I regret for the deeds that undone to Ferris..

Proudly saying,
I HAVE DONE MY BESTEST FOR FERRIS
EVER SINCE THE FEW WEEKS HE WAS GROWING IN MY WOMB
EVER SINCE THE FEW SECOND HE JUST BORN
I NEVER FAILED MY RESPONSIBLE AS A MOTHER!!


Ferris, u know better!



Monday, February 21, 2011

FERRIS FUNNY PICS SERIES #5 - Playing in the LOPAK!


FERRIS FUNNY PICS SERIES No.5

Ferris Playing in the LOPAK!!

Feb 2008, Malaysia;
Ferris asked my mom one day: "Nenek, itu apa?"
My mom answered: "Air."
Ferris: "Air apa, nenek?"
My mom: "Air hujan bertakung!"
Ferris did not understand: "Apa tu, nenek?"
My mom: "LOPAK"
Ferris: "LOPAK? What is LOPAK?"
My mom: "Air hujan bertakung."

Later..
Ferris: "Ummie..ummie! Look! That is LOPAK!"
Me: "LOPAK?"
Ferris: "Yes, LOPAK!"
Me: "How do u know that?"
Ferris: "LOPAK is a water from the rain in the middle of the road!"
Me: "Who taught u that?"
Ferris: "NENEK!"

But this picture was taken when he was 1 year and 5 months old..
He just loved to play with the mud..
and make himself dirty!!!

Have a look!

Date taken: May 20, 2005
Ferris was 1 year and 5 months!

Place: in the garden, Spechtstraat 18, Belgium
Taken by: Ummie
Camera: Fujifilm S2pro

Here we go Ferris....

Okay, Ferris just wanted to play! ..using his fingers only! Not more!


Yes, Ferris just wanted to try..
Hmm that was much better to play rather than just with the fingers..Ferris thought!


Okay...Ferris wanted to try something new..
Of course using just fingers did not give him total satisfaction at all!


Woops.. here we go!
Okay, my head wanted to feel the LOPAK as well..
Oh! Let do it like in the pool! Much better!!!


Huh! Now...what do u think?
Look at his face! Yes, indeed with the SMILE :))
And..the hair?
Yes..all wet + dirty all over his face!!


And now...time for the camera..
He smiled satisfaction!

Mission accomplished!


THIS IS TOTALLY SO FERRIS!!!!
Luckily, he is my SON!!
And I love him too much!
Though Ferris is far away from ummie...
Ummie doesnt know where papa is taking Ferris to..

Ummie has no other memories to picture Ferris in A perfect view..
instead those all in ummie's memories..
where Ferris is still 5 years and 3 months
Ferris is still 24 kg
And 125+ cm tall
(the same age/weight/height when papa has taken Ferris away from ummie)
and..
these photos...
this all ummie can recall Ferris for the absolute images!

Ferris, one day, Ferris will read this blog..
Ferris will find out the truth about why ummie cant be there for Ferris for these 24 months..
And..dont ever ever underestimate ummie's love for Ferris..
because..
it is unconditionally
unmeasured
and countless..
if Ferris only knew...

ummie sayang Ferris..
that sentence never slip off of ummie's tongue
it's too fluent for ummie to say it wrongly!

Ferris loves ummie, tak?


Friday, February 18, 2011

Majalah WANITA Mac 2011 - Setelah Dua Tahun Kehilangan Ferris

Ribuan terima kasih

kepada sidang redaksi Majalah WANITA!

Yang selama ini senantiasa memberi sokongan kepada

perjuangan saya untuk mendapatkan Ferris semula!

Especially kak Mala dan Faizah






Ya Allah segeralah makbulkan doa-doa kami!

Amin amin Ya Rabbal 'alamin!


Ferris...

u have to always remember that

Ummie loves u too much!!

It is higher than a mountain
and
wider than an ocean!

I do, baby! I do!

Time will tell, bcos time never lied!

ummie sayang Ferris ;)

Thursday, February 17, 2011

FERRIS FUNNY PICS SERIES #4 - Time to SHOWER!!! ..with aunty G!



FERRIS FUNNY PICS SERIES No.4

Auntie G was Showering Ferris

..Ferris loves to be in the water!

Date taken: May 15, 2004
Ferris was 5 months old!

Place: Precinct 10, Putrajaya
Taken by: Ummie
Camera: Fujifilm S2pro


Here we go..
auntie GG was about to shower Ferris!
And our lil Ferris was really in HAPPY mood!
He was holding on the edge of the baby tub...hehehe
he was really READY to rock in the water!!!
Look at the tongue!! ...so cute, isnt he?


"Mata pedih ke???"

OK! Bubbles time!!
Auntie G was washing Ferris' baby hair..
and...Ferris was so cool!
...he was really calm and enjoying the head massages!!


OH! Ferris got so excited!
He just kept on smiling for the cam!!
Look at his tiny feet! And his face expressions!!


Here FERRIS!!
His smiles really sweet!
He was enjoying every moment with auntie GG!
Look at his feet..he was really acting like a BIG BOSS!!


..enjoying..


..smiling!


...laughing!



READY!!!

Thank You aunty GG!!

Ferris loves aunty G!!

Ferris said: "Tie G!! Tie G! Kunape? Tie G pugi maner?"


ummie sayang Ferris too much!!
Don't ever forget us here...
Please come back!!
Ummie and aunty G are waiting...
everybody is waiting for Ferris...



Monday, February 14, 2011

FERRIS' Funny Pics #3 - Ferris got mocking by papa! Huh!


FERRIS FUNNY PICS SERIES No.3

Ferris got mocking by papa! Huh!

Date taken: May 10, 2004
Ferris was 5 months!

Place: Precinct 10, Putrajaya
Taken by: Ummie
Camera: Fujifilm S2pro


Ohhh..look at Ferris' face..so sad to be left alone!


Camera clicked...aha.. look he silent!


Then..he crying again..he wanted papa to pick him and cuddle him!


Ohhh papa teased him too much now.. he cant stand it anymore!!!


well..he we go..he smiled again!


....it's sad.. Once, we were happy family..

ummie sayang Ferris...
sayang sayang sayang...Ferris!
Missing u too much, baby ~

FERRIS' Funny Pics #2 - ..look ummie! I'm climbing!!


FERRIS FUNNY PICS SERIES No.2

Ferris' Notty Day in papa's office!!!

..look ummie! I'm climbing!!

Date taken: May 15, 2005
Ferris was 1 year and half!

Place: Spechtstraat 18, Maasmechelen, Belgium
Taken by: Ummie
Camera: Fujifilm S2pro


Here we go...someone is smiling with a very notty idea here!
Ngehh ngehhh... I wanna do something! Hmm..
Well, Ferris is thinking!! Notty face! Notty face!!!



Woopss...within a few seconds...here we go..he climbed up!
...and..



wooppsss again...
yeah, now he gotta worry! He wants to get down?? But, how??
Oh yeah?? Really smart ass, huh?
Look at his legs...looking for something to step on! Hahahaha!



Owhh...crying baby!!! Then come the papa!!
Oh yeah, here come papa..
Papa came to rescue!!!



Voila! Here I am!!
Oh NO! We thought he was crying..NO NO..
NO at all!!! He was smiling full of satisfaction!

Well, look at his face...full of ideas!
This is our Ferris..
Papa's Ferris..
and ummie's Ferris

but..
why papa took Ferris away??
Why papa wont let ummie sees Ferris..
or talk to Ferris..
or to know where is Ferris??

Is Ferris happy? Is Ferris sad? If Ferris has grown up?
How tall is Ferris now?
Can Ferris rhymes ABC or read? Can Ferris count 1,2,3-1oo??

Please Frank...
it's been 2 years now...
I heard nothing about Ferris...
Please....

Ummie sayang Ferris
Ferris buah hati gemala jantung ummie...
everything is about Ferris...
..sayang Ferris!
He always has something to do..
something to try..
something to play..
everything just to catch his papa's attentions..
so he will stop focusing on his work and play with Ferris..

ummie sayanggg Ferris...
because...
because...
Ferris is ummie's big BOY!

FERRIS' Funny Pics #1 - bathing in the sink!


FERRIS FUNNY PICS SERIES No.1

Ferris is taking a bath in the sink!

Date taken: Sept 22, 2005
Ferris was 1 year and half!

Place: Spechtstraat 18, Maasmechelen, Belgium
Taken by: Ummie
Camera: Fujifilm S2pro



..I am so happy taking bath here while ummie is preparing lunch!



Aaaaaa..... Smile Ferris! Smile!!



Buat geram..geram! ...Angry Ferris!!! geggegegggggg!!!



Gegegeggegegggggg....!!!!
Hehehe Ferris has only 8 teeth!



Aaaaaaa.......hahahaha!!

Isn't he funny?
He is cute, isn't he?

Yes, absolutely he is!!
He is my baby...
My Ferris...
I've been missing him ever since he has been taken away from me..

Please pray for his come back!

Ummie sayang Ferris!
Ummie tunggu Ferris!!