3 nights in a row I have dreamed of Ferris!!
Ferris...are u okay, baby??
Ummie is so so worried!! :(
Ummie and Ferris February 2004
It's been 7 days since my last post here in this blog.
Honestly, I was in pain.
I cant even look at this blog!
Everything remind me of Ferris..
This was how Ferris so much love ummie's stuffs!
Ferris put on ummie's shoes!
Ferris put on ummie's shoes again!!!
Last 3 nights...I have dreamed of him, straight!
On the 1st night, I dreamed that I saw him on the other side of the road..
I cant get him because too much traffic passing by
I tried to cross the motorway to get him..
I was waving and calling his name..
but again the traffic was too noisy, he cant hear me..
I have imagined many ideas, i wanted to crawl under those cars passing by..
or, I tried to do something like in the movie..just cross the street and stop the car..
NO, I cant!
I saw him standing there..
he is tall..
nice bob-cut hair, but at the tip of the hair a lil bit curly
and..not so chubby cheeks..
with his jacket, khakis pants and knapsack!
Then I woke up..
I was nervous and so much frustrated
why cant I keep on the dream surely I will get him IF
I have more time!
The 2nd night..
I dreamed of Ferris again..
but this time..he was with me..
I was holding him..like nothing happened..
but when the time go to bed,
Ferris wanted to sleep with Aunty GG..
I took him and sleep with me..
because deep down inside I could feel it that I must return him back by the sunrise!
I was really sad..holding him while laying on the bed..
Looking at him..
I was talking to him..
He did not even reply me..
he just keep silent
Ya ALLAH, what is this?
In the dream, I did not even want to fall asleep!
But the situation was the other way around....
I WOKE UP from sleep!
Give me some more time..let me feel my baby more..
I woke up and burst into tears..My heartbeat faster..
so much bad thoughts in my head!
WHY FERRIS DID NOT WANT TO TALK?
It has eaten load of my energy..
end up, the whole day I was tired and sleeping all day!
The 3rd night, last night..
I dreamed of Ferris again
This dream, I cant even remember..
but, I know..I have dreamed of him..
And today, I woke up so tiring..
my whole body feels so much want to rest more..
This was how Ferris tried to put himself to sleep for afternoon nap!
My baby fell asleep on the side table!
what is going on, baby?
What happened to you?
Are u okay?
Ummie's birthday is coming soon...
Ummie wishes to see Ferris...
Frank, it's been 2 years...