MARCH 05, 2009 - March 05, 2011
Never ending love for you, Ferris..
Ferris on 30 January 2009
it has been EXACTLY 2 years..
Ferris last pic taken few days before he has been taken away,taken by Tira, Adie's wife at Adie's printing shop, BukitAmpang Indah3 March 2009
IT HAS BEEN 2 YEARS..
This photo taken on 30 January 2009
'I love you, ummie!' That what was he said, whispering on my ear!
Ferris on 1 Jan 2009
This sad face of Ferris, after he got to know that I have to let his papa
to see him and to take him for a week..
Ferris was whining and keep on 'merengek'
he was worried how to sleep without ummie;
"And then ummie, Ferris sleep with whom?"
"But, I want to sleep with u, ummie.."
"And then ummie, Ferris sleeps and Ferris wakes up, Ferris come back to ummie?"
"Ummie, I want to sleep with ummie.."
"..and ummie? Ummie sleeps with who?"
"Fat Tiger and Small Tiger will cry..Fat Tiger and Small Tiger want to sleep with u, ummie!"
Those were Ferris' cries or 'merengek' for few days, until this video was taken!
it was 24 months ago on the same date March 5 year 2009...
was the last time I held Ferris
was the last time I saw his face
was the last time I heard his voices..
was the last time I smell his smells..
was the last glance he saw me..
exactly at 14.30
Frank has arrived..
he was wearing polo t-shirt and jeans
(for the 1st time I saw his on jeans since we've been together)
and that car, WAJA 1.5 metallic silver..
was the last time I saw my baby..
ever since that...
I HAVEN'T SEEN MY SON'S FACE
I HAVEN'T HEARD HIS VOICE
I HAVEN'T RECEIVED ANY NEWS
NO PHONE CALL
Ferris on 24 January 2009
Ferris and Mimie, his cat.
We found this cat downstairs, and Ferris really wanted to have it.
Funny thing, he just wondered why cat walks with four legs..
for his curiosity, he taught that cat to walk with 2 legs..
and he also taught that cat how to pee in the toilet!! Ha ha ha
That is our Ferris, my baby..
He thought that cat just the same like his Fat Tiger and Small Tiger..hahaha
Few times he got scratch by that cat and few bites as well!
Here I am..
Ummie is here baby..
Ummie is waiting for a miracle will happen..
only God knows how much ummie is desperately wanted this happen
as quick as possible..
All the believers told ummie..
there is GOD
GOD is GREAT!
God knows THE BEST!
Doa ibu disegerakan pemakbulannya..
it has been 2 years..
I dont mean that I am doubting the greatness of God..
or I am hesitating the fate has made for me..
NO, NO AT ALL..
but the pains are TOO MUCH
the suffers are TOO BAD
never showed any mercy on me
or got it even lesser..
it's keep coming everyday
it's keep on growing every time..
UMMIE IS MISSING FERRIS SO MUCH!!
As a mother..
I am just worried about YOU, physically and mentally..
I just cant stop myself not to worry about your well-being, baby
I know papa is taking a very good care of u
he can give u more than I do..
Ferris on 13 February 2009
Wearing Babah's helmet without visor he he he..
look at his chubby chub cheeks!!!
On this day, Ferris just came back from school..
Ferris really wanted to ride Aunty GG's scooters..
on that day, we just granted his wish...
..just show some mercy...
let me see Ferris..
U already have everything..
..the only thing that u dont have...
Please...it's been 2 years now...
Ferris...if I knew that was the last day I met you..
I will hug u tightly and would never let u go..
I will buy us a poison and we drink and die together...
this is how I feel right now...
the pain, the suffer..into that extreme..
I am crying while typing this..
I told u, my love is everything that cover up the whole universe..
but, unfortunately, ummie just cant deliver them all to you..
that is my frustration
Ummie sayang Ferris..
ummie sayang sangat Ferris..
Ferris sayang ummie, kan!
"US" on 1 February 2009